The Bible has truly change my life. I am not where I want to be but I am not who I used to be for sure. Sometimes I look at myself and I am in awe of the women I have become in Christ. I know I have a long way to go, and that I am far from perfect however I am truly humble at how far Gods Word have changed my life.
2 Timothy 3:16 says that "All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness". Gods Word have done this so much in my life that I am a different person. I remember when I loved the world so much that I had no moral compass. I did what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it and how I wanted to do it.
Truth is I was hurting so much and rather than dealing with my true feelings I chose to hide behind several mask at different times in my life.
There were two mask I wore depending on how I felt that day, the I don't care what others think about me or the mask of people pleasing.
Although I was a committed church goer, I often felt lost and a huge need for direction that when nothing else helped I picked up the Bible and read it hoping it will help me. Not knowing where to start I always decided to start at the beginning in the book of Genesis. Sadly within a few days I will fond myself not reading anymore. I heard the Bible had the answers that why I picked it up as my last resort but when I read it at the stage of life I could care less about who was who's father and how long someone lived that is where I normally stop reading.
Eventually I gave up looking for answers in the Bible or in Church even though I was going every Sunday as I was taught to do from my youth and just live......
This approach worked for a while, it actually worked very well in the day. I was occupied with my children, my husband and life, but at night while my love ones were sleep I found myself unhappy and sometimes crying. There was so much pain I had not dealt with and it was robbing me of experiencing full joy.
Is amazing how easy it is to put on a happy face and appear so well put together and yet unknown to those around you, you can be so unhappy.
Acts 17:26-27says; From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands. God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us.
I am so grateful that God always sets time and places for us to seek him. God knew that on my own I will not find the answers to life I was searching for; the only way I will find them is by someone guiding me.
The guidance I received from my spiritual sisters taught me how to read the Bible in a way that it impacts my life and brings lasting changes. I found and continue to find answers.
As a young Christian Psalm 116 spoke to my heart so much I read it everyday, I even memorized it. This Psalm captures my spiritual journey. God heard my voice and send me one of His faithful servants to teach me how to listen to His voice. I am always in awe of the impact God Words has on mine and others life and the transformation that takes place when we apply God Word to our daily living.
I will be lying if I said I never find myself missing worldly pleasures, however it doesn't take long for me to see that there is nothing good I have reap from the things I miss. The Bible says it clearly:
Galatians 6:7-8; Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.
Romans 6:21-23; What benefit did you reap at that time from the things you are now ashamed of ? Those things result in death! But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus.
The things that I miss are meaningless, most of them cause me to go against what I knew to be right. As a Christian I fight daily my doubts and fears because everyday I learn that no matter how life is at the moment good or bad God is good and His Word is priceless!!!
I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy.
Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.
The cords of death entangled me, the anguish of the grave came over me; I was overcome by distress and sorrow.
Then I called on the name of the Lord: “Lord, save me!”
The Lord is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion.
The Lord protects the unwary; when I was brought low, he saved me.
Return to your rest, my soul, for the Lord has been good to you.
For you, Lord, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord
in the land of the living.
I trusted in the Lord when I said, “I am greatly afflicted”; in my alarm I said, “Everyone is a liar.”
What shall I return to the Lord for all his goodness to me?
I will lift up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the Lord.
I will fulfill my vows to the Lord in the presence of all his people.
Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants.
Truly I am your servant, Lord; I serve you just as my mother did; you have freed me from my chains.
I will sacrifice a thank offering to you and call on the name of the Lord.
I will fulfill my vows to the Lord in the presence of all his people, in the courts of the house of the Lord; in your midst, Jerusalem.
Praise The Lord.